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There’s been much talk on the Internet about Will Smith’s ”confession” of having an open marriage with wife Jada Pinkett. Read more here 

 I’m sure Will is going to take alot of heat for his admission, but I’m not really sure what type of admission it is. While many of his fans seem up in arms that the straight laced, happily married celebrity now turns out to be a kinkster, it’s a shame that they are missing a few larger points.

 I understand that celebrity brings it’s own set of challenges, and therefore a completely different set of coping skills than most of us need. Celebrities do live with hype, pressure and temptations that we will, most likely, never understand. To be surrounded by people on a daily basis that prop you up and feed your ego will, sooner or later, allowing people to believe their own hype. So to develop some sort of system, or boundary line, to cope with temptation actually seems practical as well as realistic.

The actual statement was  

 “In our marriage vows, we didn’t say ‘forsaking all others.’ The vow that we made was that you will never hear that I did something after the fact … If it came down to it, then one spouse can say to the other, ‘Look, I need to have sex with somebody. I’m not going to if you don’t approve of it – but please approve of it.‘”

For me, the above statement is far removed from the comments and statements of most open relationship couples. It’s completely theoretical, based off of what might happen. It’s just not the same type of comment I would expect to hear. In other interviews, Will & Jada have said that they follow other celebrity marriages, especially breakups, ask questions, and put lessons learned into practice in their own relationship.  It seems that all they did was to look at the celebrity world around them, its pitfalls and temptations, and develop a practical agreement that says, “This happens all around us. If these things start to happen to us, we will discuss it before anything happens.”  

Rather than being vilified, or made a poster child for open relationships, I hope his comments are taken for what they are, a couple who communicate, talk about their future and how they might handle issues, and work at making their relationship work. The fact that they are able to discuss these things is a positive element, and hopefully that is the message people will hear, (but I’m skeptical of that.)

 But of course, the media hype will turn this into more than it is.

I found an article today that I found a little disturbing. The article, found here, states that 60% of women will embark on some sort of extra marital affair during their marriage.

 I’m unsure of my reaction. Should I jump for joy at the thought of equal rights for women, be saddened by the rising number of women leaving the confines of their  relationship, or take a look at my own personal perception of women and relationships?

I’m not sure if I fully believe the article. I have long held the position that while men will cheat for a myriad of reasons, women will only stray for two distinctive reasons, mental damage from their past or their emotional needs are not being met at home. While that may seem simplistic, those seem to be the two basic categories.

 This study seems to suggest that more women are participating in recreational sex, free of intimacy and the confines of a relationship. Other studies have come out as well, showing biologically that there has always been a percentage of women cheating, with the result throughout history being 10% of children living in a home without their biological father. In most of those cases, going back 30 years or more, neither the child nor the father was unaware of their non-biological relationship.

But that number is 10%, a far cry from the 60% that this survey is reporting.

If the survey numbers are correct, are we as women finding types of pleasure that only men were capable of, or heading down a slippery slope that will leave us feeling more insecure in our sexuality by feeling what can be the emptiness of recreational sex? Does my personal theory of emotional damage or emotional neglect still hold true? If that were the case, it would mean there are more women than ever walking around damaged or neglected.

I was visiting a website for older women, and one of the most common topics, of course, is cheating husbands, and how to control them. I was actually shocked at the number of women who have a set list of “deal breakers”, or situations that are non-negotiable and would immediately end the marriage or relationship.

I have a hard time with that. One thing I think most women look for in their life is unconditional love. But how is unconditional love possible when all you are offering in return is love with conditions? For me, having “deal breakers” in place immediately takes compassion and forgiveness off the table. 

In life, I want a partner, not a person that I feel I need to manage. And by setting conditions, I would be putting myself in a manager position instead of a partnership position.  I accept the fact that that I married another human being, and as such, is capable of stumbling and making mistakes. But by setting conditions, I am not offering partnership. A true partner would say, “If you stumble, I will help brush you off and get you back on your feet.”

 And does my husband see this as a permission to screw around? No, quite the opposite. He understands the true gift of unconditional love. And we all know that rules enhance temptation. He understands that the gift of unconditional love actually holds him to a higher standard, one that says “I know you might make a mistake, but I also know the great things you are capable of.” He is empowered to live his life, and works hard to never abuse the gift we have given each other.

 I’ve been visiting a family member who is completely unhappy with her life. At 40 years old, she is struggling financially, raising kids alone, and her life is not what she expected. And adding to her frustration, she has compartmentalized her life into pretty little boxes, all which tell her what life “should be like”.

Of course, life never neatly falls into the neat little boxes like on television. The box of “This is what makes a good mother” resides next to “This is how a good son or daughter should act”. In the real world, the boxes break or life spills over from one box to the next. Life is messy, and many times hard. To create a small box or vision of how aspects of your life “should be” can become very unrealistic. You have to pick and choose your battles. What’s important is the end result of winning the whole war not winning every small daily battle along the way.

Instead of appreciating the great qualities of her children and people around her, she has developed expectations of how they are supposed to be. She has created boxes for them, and attempts to force them into her vision since they are part of her life. Expectation very often leads to failure. She has become dependent on them to live up to her daily expectation, and quite often becomes dissapointed when they fail to meet that expectation.

 Thats not to say that expectation is bad. Just as equally frustrating would to create a situation where nothing is expected of each other. But there needs to be a balance. The expectation needs to be based on the limitations and goals of the people she is trying to define. And living within those limitations. To expect more will only dissapoint her.

 Even in her current relationship, a sort of “Stella Got Her Groove Back” situation, she finds herself frustrated. Her male friend is simply that, a male friend who she goes to dinner and movies with, and sometimes they share more intimate times, a friends with benefits type setup.

 But it doesn’t properly fit into the box of what a relationship “should be”, even though this is the type of situation she is currently looking for. Instead of putting it into the proper box, she is attempting to define the relationship by a different standard, because to her, this type of setup is immature and not her. In the process, she  frustrating herself as well as him.

 Defining aspects of our lives is important. But just as important is to define then realistic fashion, and not based off of how life is supposed to be.